January 6, 2012 by themommahen
I’ve been sitting at my computer the past several days in the 10-15 minute increments I get to myself, my mind spinning. So much on my mind, so many moments to document, so many observations to share. But those minutes are fleeting and before I know it, they’re gone, and it’s time to play cars or pick up H#1 from school or the baby wakes up or any number of other things happen that pull me away, often leaving only a few sentences or a couple of paragraphs of an abandoned post that may or may not ever be completed. But that’s not the only reason I’ve been away from her so long. Something happened over the holidays. I unplugged. I know, I know, people always talk about unplugging, or deactivating their Facebook account, or abandoning Twitter, but I didn’t set out to do any of those things. I just simply found myself – gasp – enjoying the moments I found myself in. Sure, I did the occasional status update or tweet, and there were many times I thought to myself “that would make a good post.” But nine times out of 10, those thoughts remained just that – thoughts.
Why am I writing now about why I haven’t been writing? Partly because I’ve been feeling a wee bit guilty for missing out on getting some of the milestones going on around here captured for posterity’s sake. Perhaps a small part of me thinks I had some genius observations to share that were life- and game-changing, though that would be quite an overstatement. Or maybe because a new year just started and, while I don’t really do resolutions, I do like the thought of new beginnings and fresh starts. And then I came upon this article about mindfulness. The writer was talking about mindful parenting, but the parenting part isn’t what spoke to me at first – it was the mindful part. Because how often have I written about being in the moment? And if I’ve written about it, then that means I’ve thought about it exponentially more times than that.
Mindful. A simple word, but one that sums up how I think about being in the moment. Deliberate. Full of my mind. My mind focused on what I’m doing. And then I read it again. And again. And, yes, one more time. That’s when I realized exactly why my mouth (or my written words) have been silent for a while. Because my mind has fully been in the moment. Here’s hoping 2012 brings us all many more mindful moments.